Update. My secret and Stigma.

Good evening. It's that time again.

So today I had my consultant appointment at the lovely St Cross hospital. My blood tests have come back and they are great. Liver function is normal and my white blood cell count was good. It's also showing that there is nearly no inflammation. I am a happy little Jo about that. So my immunosuppressants have been doubled. The doctor and nurse were very sympathetic about how hard it is to come down of the steroids. I was all bad ass and told them that no matter how I felt I am going to come down week by week until the end of the course. I mean it. I am determined. Yeahh rock on. So I had another blood test (still on 1 blood test a week).

Then I had to get home and get an appointment with my GP for my depression meds and diazapam. Now I know that I shouldn't tell people that I am on these types of medication. I am not stupid and I know there is a stigma that comes with it. There shouldn't be. I saw a problem and I was brave enough to get help. It's perfectly logical. I was even on anti psychotics for a while. See thats my secret and now it's out! It helped deal with the side effects of the Steroids and helped my OCD a lot. Right now I am on Citralapram and the odd diazapam. I am successfully dealing with housework, the finances having an illness for over 10 years. Being on lots of other medication, and the anxiety and thoughts that come with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I even go out now.I have to use a lot of will power and I lean on my sister and my parents a lot. So if the citralapram and diazapam means I get a little bit more help, I don't see how people can be against it.

I'm not Crazy I swear Lol

Now if people want to laugh at me and call me crazy or not want to associate with me because of my mental health issues...so be it. I'm not angry. Actually I think it's pretty cute. They are naive to these issues and it's kind of nice in a way that people can keep that innocence. They obviously haven't dealt with any of the issues me and many others like me have dealt with.
I just hope if they are going to think like they do, that they don't have issues in the future because they would feel awful about what they did wouldn't they? :-)