June/July

I deleted this blog. But I have undeleted it now.

The last few months have been very very tough. I was put on prednisolone and that sent me a bit crazy to be honest. I put up with it because I knew it would help me get better. I started on 40 mg and went down 5mg every week. Well by 30mg I was very depressed. I was crying all the time I could hardly get through the day. I went and saw a Doctor and was put anti-depressants for the ocd, and anti-psychotics for the anxiety. They zonked me out a lot.

   So I continued. I went in for my endoscope on the 1st of June. I refused any sedation. What the hell? Why would you do that Jo? Well first and foremost I wanted to be out of the hospital as soon as I could and second why the extra risk?

Preperation room. 

So the endoscope begins. My consultant straight away said he is not happy with what he is seeing. "OOOh that must be very painful". Ulcers. Can you believe it? Even after all the prednisone I get the stupid ulcers. So all the pred for nothing. Afterwards my consultant comes to talk to me. Then I am taken in to a room with a nurse and asked all these questions about how I feel with the diagnosis. She was so concerned and very sweet. All the doctors were really nice and supportive. 

So back home. I'm on no meds getting worse by the day. Feeling down. I go back to the doctors and get my depression meds upped. I have finally got hold of my consultant's assistant and managed to get an appointment. I also got a letter saying that he hopes to put me on immunosuppressant's.

So thats the negetives. 

What about the positives...